Never have I been quite so happy to see one line - and yet feel guilty at the same time for being happy to see one.
What am I talking about? Pregnancy tests!
You see for the past few days I thought I may have been pregnant again - not that this would be a huge problem but we just need to wait a few months more and it would be much better timing.
The whole time I was thinking Crap crap crap - we were meant to plan it better this time round! But at the same time thinking how exciting another baby - if only the timing was a few weeks better. I had many issues with my workplace and maternity leave last time round and I need to wait a few more months so I don't have any reason for them to deny me maternity leave again.
But there was only one line and it was quite a relief.
And yet I felt guilt feeling this way and empathy for all the people we know who desperately want to see those two pink lines appear and month after month after month only see one. A friend of ours who would desperately love to have another baby has foundout she is peri-menopausal and IVF is her last option and a slim chance at that. Other friends who have been so wanting to fall pregnant only to have multiple miscarriages.
These events are so sad for the people involved and my heart goes out to anyone who has ever suffered fro these types of problems.
So yes - right now I am glad there is only one line - for us at this time.
But for al those put there hoping to see two - I only wish you all the best and my heart goes out to you for the best of luck. Because when you want to see two- it is the most heart poundingly exciting and yest possibly dissapointing time of your life.